standing too close to the edge…

 
dangling –
here –
mere inches from release,
terrified to lose control!
 
pondering –
the forward,
and reverse –
confused,
unsure…
 
what if i take the step –
will my footing hold?
the edge is much too close,
and i am yet afraid…
 
that nothing will replace
the insignificance i have become
and i’ll fall –
headlong –
into less than –
something –
 
un-missed,
a stone thrown in the pond –
so small –
no sound,
no tell-tale –
ripples!

Sonnet #1: What I have found in you.

 
My friend – you touch me deeper than the sun,
And every smile you smile fills up my soul!
With you it matters not what I have done,
For all my dreams you’ve taken and made whole!
Before your touch my life was closing fast.
But then you came and opened up the door.
Now all my insecurities have passed.
I’ve found with you a life and so much more!
You’ve brought the sun and rolled the clouds away.
And I can see new hopes and dreams ahead.
I’ll never wonder what to do or say,
Because with you all thanks can go unsaid!
 
If I had one small gift to give to you –
     To find in me – what I have found in you!

fault-line

 
wanting to – remember
needing to – remember
yet unable to – remember…
(thoughts strewn random – un-collectable).
 
pleading,
desperately –
yet adamant.
the mind –
however,
unyielding…
(uncontrolled chaos – borderline dementia).
 
memories collected –
haphazardly –
disorganized sanity…
(thin, the line between what is and what should be).
 
and standing guard –
the one called – father –
ageless sentinel
surveying all –
yet seeing –
nothing!

secure within your walls

out through the in-door,
in through the out –
always against the current,
you…

traveling now –
back into my country –
sunlight on the horizon,
dawn to a brand new day!

how is it –
with ease –
you navigate my conscious stream of life –
transverse my sky
as easily as light adheres to day?

nothing else –
not even thought –
can penetrate,
so easily permeate my mind.

you wrap around me –
contain the all of me
as much as –
skin.

complete –
i am –
with you –
secure within…

undeserving

 
entangled in
my now –
entwined within 
my what-will-be,
you…
an anchor fastened to my heart –
essential as even –
air.
 
what was life before
you –
who drew the line
between indifferent –
and necessary?
 
was there sunlight –
or did the night – so nonchalant
just close his eyes –
allowing day…
 
i cherish moments
filled with oh-so–much of you,
grateful –
yet undeserving…

 

when angels lose their wings

 
jack be nimble,
jack be quick –
(but not too quick).
 
one year farther away
from –
“congratulations! it’s a boy!”
 
funny –
how quickly time passes –
just yesterday,
(it seems – and just like dreams…)
articulating – da-da-,
and oh how suddenly the
world (if only for a minute) stopped turning…
 
26 journeys –
collection of seasons –
memories (how many shells on the beach?);
mullet-cut, blue-eyed cowboy,
with and insatiable appetite
for – fun!…
 
love –
only truly genuine possession
i have –
freely i give.
on this most awesome day that you (from angel – to son)
were born! 

sweet gift of life

 

my – is –

this – moment;

all i need,

and all im guaranteed –

you may choose another agenda –

fill your days,

your – moments –

with – what if…

but -i,

i choose – acceptance,

gratitude,

appreciation –

each breath –

each moment –

sweet gift of life –

amazing!

your eyes

i imagine –

days with you –

strolling through open doors,

passing through endless rooms of

contentment.

 

feeling close –

without the need to touch,

we’d share that

which cannot be said.

 

instead of going past the 

need –

by-passing the greed of

have-to-have –

lingering –

instead – on the very ledge

of – just enough…

 

your eyes hold secrets –

places i have never been –

realms of unclaimed pleasure –

i would die to comprehend!

 

too soon away

 

take this moment,

for what it’s worth –

merely a drop of water

in a vast ocean of time…

 

and even now –

as we ponder our existence,

the moment is gone…

 

a hurried good-bye –

a hand outstretched,

not taken –

insignificant?

 

while we consume ourselves

with – what if –

what is – fades away!

more than necessary

i enjoy you –
as much as great,
as deep as sky…

i drink you in,
submerge myself
in your smile –
lose my way,
in the deepness of your eyes!

time stands still,
when i’m with you –
reality redefined –
you speak my name,
and worlds collide…

how can i sleep,
dare close my eyes and find you gone when waking?
this fragile heart would surely break
if suddenly alone,
detached…

without you,
i would simply cease to be…

greater than want,
you are,
so much more than necessary!