the evasive nature of sanity

 
hope lingers in the doorway –
wisp of cigarette smoke
escaping into the dark of night…
 
you there –
silhouette in the shadows –
enticing me with silent promises
(your eyes have stories to tell)…
 
i followed you –
once –
unafraid – yet anxious –
into the heart of – unknown –
beneath a star-less sky –
right up to the door of – what if.
(how can you enter without a key?)
 
scared –
suddenly aware –
(naked as full moon)
how could i continue on?
(oh so tight the chains of insecure).
innocence – sacrificed.
unaware made – poignantly – aware!
 
you are my secret pleasure –
ember of a fire i cannot resist –
warmth i crave,
yet unable to survive the heat!
(like the moth to the flame)
 

things unnecessary

 

things unneeded fill our days –

like possibly,

perhaps,

maybe…

how often do we put aside

what matters,

holding our breath –

clenching our hands,

expecting even Atlas to shrug –

for what?

a hand we feel compelled to hold?

replies to questions – unheard?

as callous as forget,

intangible as why –

we build our lives on

could,

should –

then wonder what went wrong

when trapped in lonely –

unremembered as even midnight

by pompous dawn!

mid – life

 

age –

simply defined;

a collection of years,

or perhaps –

seasons.

 

society puts up fences –

youth here,

old age there,

either, or…

 

i find my place neither

in, nor out –

and so i sit upon the fence –

dangling my feet,

and my heart,

in both pastures.

narcissistic you…

 

pensive –

hypocritically – contrite –

you stand alone,

a bastion of solitude in a sea of outstretched hands…

 

demure in your self-proclaimed inculpability.

astonishingly – obtuse.

 

devoid of even a trace of empathy,

i watch as you bask in your

self-righteous piety –

seemingly unaware of the absurdity –

oblivious of your own flagrant nonentity!

of all experiences…

 

possibly

sits on the couch with

his good friend –

could be –

together they –

oh so carefully –

plan-

nothing…

 

and somewhere on the other side of –

what could be –

sunrise, 

regardless stands watch –

(the world ever so surely continues to turn)…

 

i understand the 

feeling of a rose –

blooming –

the sheer exuberance 

of life;

exaltation –

joy unparalleled –

simply – living –

most awesome of all experiences!