shackled by the awesomeness of you –

i stand in shadow –

waiting for the lightening crash,

the thunder roll,

the storm – inevitable – to pass…

there is no – just because –

with you,

no almost –

no doubt!

you oh so effortlessly over-fill the cup,

sweep the refuse from the waste

of – nearly –

aside.

walk right up to indecision –

unafraid –

un-denied!

if i could have one wish –

one dream come true –

to be as much as even half of you –

to run through fields of confidence,

toss chaos to the wind,

open – with purpose –

the pages of life –

release the doubt,

the fear of – not enough!

for just one day –

to be the – axis,

not merely the passenger –

the reason,

no longer – just the after thought…

wanting more than less –

needing more than have –

i find my life in shadow,

standing still…

consumed by doubt –

entombed within the walls of disbelief –

i feel the madness creep

into my living,

forcing me to contemplate my fate.

do i seek refuge here

in dying’s harbor?

commit to nothing –

become un-done?

how simple then,

the letting go –

no need –

for need,

no longing –

to belong…

so sweet the peace that

must come with the passing.

so great the un-weight,

un-encumbered –

un-entwined –

the soul,

aged captive –

finally free…