into the desolation

solitude –

precursor to loneliness.

 

disassociation of self –

from soul.

 

plunged head first –

into this desolation…

 

where do you turn to find

acceptance –

what price – the need?

 

compassion comes,

but not without cost.

 

smiles –

transparent,

masking pain –

unrealized.

 

abandon –

cruel nemesis to faith,

prevails –

 

hurt sustains!

unbecoming

 

wanting more than less –

needing more than have –

i find my life in shadow,

standing still…

 

consumed by doubt –

entombed within the walls of disbelief –

i feel the madness creep

into my living,

forcing me to contemplate my fate.

 

do i seek refuge here

in dying’s harbor?

commit to nothing –

become un-done?

 

how simple then,

the letting go –

no need –

for need,

no longing –

to belong…

 

so sweet the peace that

must come with the passing.

so great the un-weight,

un-encumbered –

un-entwined –

the soul,

aged captive –

finally free…