absence of belonging

un-found –

not lost –

the difference in the 

absence of belonging…

 

longing for –

that which you cannot have –

smile returned,

touch received,

void filled…

 

alone –

i was –

before i thought you found me,

long before i dreamed you –

cared,

believed…

 

how easy to release –

it seems,

regardless how far the fall –

not even the absence of a net deters the craving…

 

this lonely life – spent in the shadows,

eyes open,

scanning the horizon –

knees bent –

prayers sent –

all in vain!

 

your footsteps echo down the corridor,

long passageway of lonely –

leading you away –

 

from me –

 

all things good un-gravitate –

un-attach –

leave me –

undefined,

un-entwined with life…

 

need –

grasping at threads of hope –

a breeze merely blows away…

further along the journey

once upon a –

not so long ago;

before the now,

was then.

soon after that first,

hello…

 

(Eden – well,

at least some acceptable facsimile),

there was a you,

i knew –

and a me you,

although – reluctantly –

allowed –

admittance…

 

why is it –

in the light –

all demons – disappear?

aren’t they –

by nature –

invincible?

 

if can’t is not allowed to become is,

what then?

this timid soul does not posses the strength to slay

even the most subtle dragon,

and nowhere in the manual of supposition

is there an option –

to just – be!

 

indignant –

of you to assume!

 

your judgement falls like hail upon the road –

undisclosed to one –

further along the journey!