the possibility of

and there –
on the horizon –
setting sun…
 
did you make a difference today?
did you color outside the lines?
 
did you disallow the urge to follow cadence?
march instead to the beat of your own drum?
 
i find it oh so intriguing the way sunlight captures day,
holds it – indisposed,
then sets it free…
 
and once again nightfall.
prelude to the possibility of –
(another day of) anything,
 
or – nothing…

alone – again…

pennies tossed without reluctance into wishing wells.
so too –
words.
 
presumptions.
allegations.
opinion.
diatribes of judgment.
 
what purpose masks of implied?
obsolete –
conviction to intend.
 
with just the whisper of suppose the shutters close.
 
and once again – alone…

indignant

sometimes,
just one word.
no explanation.
no pomp nor circumstance.
no indictment of intention.
 
to camouflage with pretense of necessary,
would be heinous –
most affected crime.
 
sometimes,
just one word.
summation made from observation.
 
understanding the truth –
black is black.
white is white.
what purpose loading palettes with grey (indifference)?
 
far less intrusive –
don’t you agree?
definition of opinion –
than silence – that implies…
 
sometimes,
just one word…

exclusion by virtue of indifference

words we offer.

superfluous incantations.

so easy to speak to sadness when unaffected –

merely spectator to the tragedy.

 

symbolically,

we promenade our good intentions –

feign allegiance to the victims of indifference.

but when the shadows fall,

retire to our catacombs of selfish insensitivity.

 

where did the disconnect occur?

at what point along our journey did we simply abandon the side-car of compassion –

exchange our tickets of camaraderie for self-serving vehicles of elitism?

 

tomorrow,

regardless our attempt at manipulation,

life will continue.

as much as we choose to disregard injustice,

the reality of conflict will remain.

those that find confidence behind masks of inferred generosity –

imagine restitution paid by superficial acts of benevolence –

will sadly find admittance to paradise denied –

disallowed  by supposed inclusion by intention…

 

words,

we offer –

prayers for forgiveness.

dialogue for recompense.

 

heads bowed,

unintentional act of respect –

eyes closed,

irreverent –

 

surely there can be no penalty of judgment –

for crimes we choose not to see…

this amazing life

 

this moment –
borrowed,
short –
precious…

it hangs on – briefly;
a breath held in anticipation –
skipped beat of a heart –
first babies cry…

awesome – don’t you think –
this journey called life?
it seems so many times –
we get caught up in the – want –
involved in expectation;
preoccupied with – when –
so much that we miss out on the – now…

my – is –
this – moment;
all i need,
and all i’m guaranteed –
you may choose another agenda –
fill your days,
your – moments –
with – what if…

but -i,
i choose – acceptance,
gratitude,
appreciation –
each breath –
each moment –
sweet gift of life –
amazing!

bottom of down

to be the somebody you want me to be,
i’d have to let go of the nobody i am…
 
to find my way up from the bottom of down,
requires more rope –
a stronger knot…
 
you –
my friend –
are not aware –
your disassociation creates grey –
space unfilled –
water much too deep to wade –
too wide to swim –
and your strong hands,
will not build a bridge…
 
all alone is too much sad –
the absence of touch,
a feeling i wish i never had…

abandoned

i lose my way –
inside the space –
between my hello,
and your goodbye…
 
time stands still.
reality – redefined.
 
i lose my way –
in the maze of your smile.
wonder,
as i wander,
how can such beauty coexist,
with so much pain –
contained,
within the enigma – of you…
 
and as i make my way
across the broken surface of your (un)intention,
i recognize the jagged edge of your sorrow.
stumble on the uneven terrain,
of your silent – disregard…
 
questions,
i have.
opportunity for you to abrogate – suppose.
yet truth,
you do not choose.
and inasmuch as dark
does not consume the light,
your conviction does not make the wrong of your abandon,
even
remotely
 
right…

narcissistic you…

pensive –
hypocritically – contrite –
you stand alone,
a bastion of solitude in a sea of outstretched hands…
demure in your self-proclaimed in-culpability.
astonishingly – obtuse.
devoid of even a trace of empathy,
i watch as you bask in your
self-righteous piety –
seemingly unaware of the absurdity –
oblivious of your own flagrant nonentity!

of windows unopened and keys without locks…

what purpose –
words.
 
manipulated expression designed to un-intend.
regardless the inquisition –
in spite of implied affirmation –
sometimes the only resolution comes from silence.
 
and if,
by chance –
you feel disconnected –
disallowed –
pushed outside the doorway of necessary,
perhaps your key was not designed to fit the lock –
 
just maybe,
the door was never meant to open…

silence from another room

waiting for the silence from another room.
the absence of arbitration.
inviting the cold disconnect of solitude –
the comfort of alone.
 
too often we gather in congregation of suppose.
disallow our words the freedom of truth.
and finding ourselves surrounded by assembly of deceive,
we trade our identity for the vanity of same.
how can it be –
this miracle of life –
this singular celebration of creation –
can somehow become so much less than allowed?
 
instead of stepping up to challenge adversary of deception,
we hide behind our banners of indifference –
feigned allegiance to (counterfeit) conviction.
yet when we find ourselves alone –
exposed –
wearing only garments of insignificance –
we shout from platform of contempt –
challenge delegation of discrimination.
 
uncomfortable –
wearing shoes that do not fit,
 
walking reluctantly through minefields of indiscretion –
conveniently hidden just under the surface of your regret.