Monthly Archives: November 2019

walking into dying – alone

thought about being lonely –
today.
 
thought about all the times
i’ve ran away,
leaving you cold for awhile –
then returning,
wearing the things you love;
my heart on my sleeve,
and a smile!
 
realized – today,
that you are truly – gone!
 
and trying to wash away your
memory,
i filled my soul with
insecurity,
bled my eyes – tear-stained –
dry!
 
thought about living – today,
and died!
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and now i (cannot) lay me down to sleep…

how do you –
un-feel,
un-remember,
un-know…
 
how do you –
un-live,
un-do,
un-care?
 
nothing that i’ve ever felt,
no sunrise seen;
dream imagined – true –
nothing that i’ve ever known
made in this world –
compares to you…
 
essential as air –
attached to my need as much as dawn –
to night –
the all of you is everything to me…
 
how can a soul –
un-need,
a touch once felt?
how does a heart –
un-break,
once broken?
 
agony in your absence –
lonely,
cold as midnight dark –
pieces scattered on the ground of –
used to be happy.
shattered dreams,
thin as angel’s hair –
carried away by winds of discontent…
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hiding behind the …

my feelings –
alien to you as much as – secure is to timid,
shatter like shards of glass against your narcissistic walls…
 
how awesome,
it must be –
being you;
how – required!
 
pompous as an apostrophe –
owning possession,
and the power to unite –
yet completely – unaffected!
 
and while you dangle effortless,
unencumbered –
I remain tied to the weight of my own culpability.
 
necessary,
you are –
more than any imagined ownership.
for without you,
meaning is lost;
and I become irrelevant as a useless preposition –
alone – without the companion of my most reluctant ,
yet oh so necessary –
 
object…
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when i’m without you

those days are here again –
when i’m alone –
clinging to the threads of
my existence,
falling fast!
 
those days are here again –
when you are gone –
and everywhere i turn,
i find the emptiness,
the lonely shadow.
 
where are you now –
these sleepless nights,
these lifeless days?
where have you run
to find yourself?
 
you leave me –
losing mine!
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