departure
you hide behind your – suppose –
as if it were a shroud,
seemingly unaware of the audacity –
imposed by your flagrant transparency…
how awkward –
meeting here like this –
exposing all my is,
to find it wasted effort to your – presume!
when did the lines become so blurred?
boundaries,
redefined?
we used to travel the same path –
shared the same – once upon a time…
dangling now –
contemplating the letting go –
while you callously take flight on wings of indifference.
surely there is no sadness more intense
than dying –
without death!
composition of the vessel
loneliness (part 1)
acquaintance – less than friend…
elusive –
this thing called trust.
in a life spent pursuing dreams,
it remains the foundation of our reality.
easily implied,
we believe without even a trace of suspect.
sometimes we linger in the moment –
sometimes even for a season.
invariably,
the walls made of presume will find confrontation with the storm of doubt.
left to loiter in the aftermath,
what will define what’s left of our belief?
perhaps when praying for blessing –
request clarity –
discernment between speculation versus intent.
and if,
by chance,
parallel lines cannot be drawn –
agendas of accommodation,
then barricade the path –
detour the journey of wasted time –
misappropriation of dedication –
to acquaintance,
less than friend…
a box of after-while
hiding behind the …
my feelings –
alien to you as much as – secure is to timid,
shatter like shards of glass against your narcissistic walls…
how awesome,
it must be –
being you;
how – required!
pompous as an apostrophe –
owning possession,
and the power to unite –
yet completely – unaffected!
and while you dangle effortless,
unencumbered –
I remain tied to the weight of my own culpability.
necessary,
you are –
more than any imagined ownership.
for without you,
meaning is lost;
and I become irrelevant as a useless preposition –
alone – without the companion of my most reluctant ,
yet oh so necessary –
object…
peace – be still…
sometimes – just tired.
and while the implication points to disengaged, the truth is not found on that particular page.
tonight i give up the fight.
tonight i lay down the weapons of conflict.
tonight i turn out the light – retreat.
tonight –
i am just too tired to engage with demons that presume entitled occupancy.
my sanctuary of surrender is off limits.
there will be no confrontation,
no chaos of unnecessary,
no conflict –
tonight…