entangled in

my now –

entwined within

my what-will-be,

you…

an anchor fastened to my heart –

essential as even –

air.

what was life before

you –

who drew the line between indifferent –

and necessary?

was there sunlight –

or did the night – so nonchalant

just close his eyes –

allowing day?

i cherish moments

filled with oh-so-much of you,

grateful –

yet undeserving…

i see you there –

in the shadowy twilight of my used to be –

safe,

a memory tucked away for a rainy day…

i used to think the world revolved around you –

stars,

you made –

sun, only from your smile…

i often found myself absorbed within the all of you –

eyes,

dark as midnight –

doorway to the temple of your soul –

but me,

being me,

never found the courage for the journey –

and you,

being you,

never offered safe passage…

why is it –

now – redefined –

i find the feelings turned from awe –

to anguish?

how can i blame the dawn –

for day?

the moon –

for night?

your creation was not conceived for my salvation –

your hands much too large to hold the tininess of me!

this moment –

borrowed,

short –

precious…

it hangs on – briefly;

a breath held in anticipation –

skipped beat of a heart –

first babies cry…

awesome – don’t you think –

this journey called life?

it seems so many times –

we get caught up in the – want –

involved in expectation;

preoccupied with – when –

so much that we miss out on the – now…

my – is –

this – moment;

all i need,

and all i’m guaranteed –

you may choose another agenda –

fill your days,

your – moments –

with – what if…

but -i,

i choose – acceptance,

gratitude,

appreciation –

each breath –

each moment –

sweet gift of life –

amazing!

i found myself –

upon the shore –

gazing in your eyes –

calm –

deep water.

i wanted you to know me –

feel my presence.

without – hesitation –

or reservation –

i tossed the stone…

ripples –

endless waves –

flowing outward.

and even if i wanted –

i could not stop them –

or even withdraw the effect

of my most curious touch

on your enigmatic mind!

unable,

to define the reason

for the need –

incapable of justifying cause.

restrained within a room of solitude,

dreamless sleep,

from which,

no waking!

intermittently,

like sun through broken clouds,

i realize the dawn –

sweet recompense for midnight’s darkness –

and there –

on the horizon,

you –

resplendent in your wholesome goodness –

savior from this insanity…